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Sun May 24, 2009, 9:24 PM
Beware self-pity and terrified ramblings.

In just a few minutes, the last day of my free life will be over, and the day where I will move out and have no scanner will begin. In less than eight hours, I'm going to college, to work 480 hours over the summer to pay for my room and board on campus. ;A; The worst part? I still haven't decided for certain what I'm going to do. All of the potential careers I'm interested in are kind of whimsical and useless in a recession. (Writer, journalist, teacher, counselor, graphic artist...) Yeah.

HAVE I EVER MENTIONED THAT I FAIL AT LIFE?

FFFF, anyway, so I'm thinking of trying to decode my tablet (which is tiny, hates me, and has pressure sensitivity that rarely ever works) and using that to draw with. Maybe the college has a scanner.

HOLY ASKLDJASGHKSODFIVKNSKFNSDO my life is overrrrrr...

I'm so horribly lazy. Being busy kills my brain and drives me batty. And the college requires incoming students to work all year long, and it will pay their tuition. Which I need so very much. BUT GACK. It's going to be busy.

Excuse me while I have a few mental breakdowns in advance. *sobsob*

I am so unprepared for this.

AND MY SISTER. She's sixteen, by the way. She's going to college, too. And she has chosen to pursue a career in nursing. Where she'll actually make money. I suck.

/FAILFAILFAILFAILFAIL

I-I warned you about the self-pity.

Yeah. Shutting up now.

OHHAI. I like the mood icon below. I'm the yellow one. :3

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:iconroseille:
OHMYGOSHILOVEYOUUUUUUU. ;A; *hugsforever*

Thank you. ;^; :heart:

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NOOOOOO DDDD:

You don't fail >_> And the careers you mentioned are not useless. For example, being a graphic designer is very useful and needy nowadays, with all the massive visual bomb on publicity and etc. At least in my country there is a lot of calling for graphic designers o_o (as I started college a few months ago and I'm in an art school, because I want to live of art). But yeah... is safely to choose a career you know you would save you life and be steady with instead XD

Ahhhhh I hope you get the time to draw something *kicks tablet* ;;

Cheers Roseille, I know you will go on :333
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:hug: Well, I know it may not help much, but I think you will do just fine. There are lots of good jobs out there for artists and writers. Don't worry until you've had a chance to look into it more! See if you can get an advisor who is part of the art or creative writing departments, that may help you a lot.

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:iconhiroshima-zombie:
I understand your doubts, or the fact that you might be a bit scared of the future: nowadays it's really difficult to simply find a job, and when your dream career is something that doesn't necessarily equal a permanet employment somewhere and/or a good paycheck, it surely doesn't get any easier.
I understand all of this as a Philosophy student and wanna be!teacher/researcher/writer. But I made the choices I made because I knew that, otherwise, I would have been unhappy for the rest of my life.
Sure, money is necessary to live, but I think struggling and fighting to become and do what you actually want is alright: if you have enough money to live decently, but can't pursue your dreams (as cheesy as it may sound), will you be happy then?
As long as you *love* something, following the path you chose, as difficult as it can be, will be always better than having an easy life devoid of joy and/or self-satisfaction.
One thing is letting yourself go, using the excuse of being 'creative' or 'too different' to do nothing at all, another thing is being wonderfully talented (which is your case, definitely) and wanting to live following these inclinations--being yourself.
It's alright if you wonder and wonder and wonder, it's alright if you're a bit scared--it happens to everyone, at least once in their life. Still, as long as you know you can be happy with the path you will choose, you will know you've made the right choice.
Belive in yourself!

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You don't fail at life, and if you know what you like to do, maybe you can pursue a career that will keep you happy throughout your life :D

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I vote for graphic arts! :salute:
:iconroseille:
:heart: Thanks for commenting! I'm definitely thinking about it. <3 I'm thinking of dropping by the career office and visiting the guy who works there. He says that the college can administer tests to see to which career field incoming students are most suited for. I'm rather interested to see how that will turn out.

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:iconroseille:
:heart: *hugs you super tight* Thank you so much for the kind words. I am really hoping to find a job that I can enjoy; whatever it may be, that is the one thing that I'm really sure about. If I'm going to be doing it for the rest of my life, I'd love to be able to do something that I can wake up to and not despise the thought of.

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